tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2009-11-10:/Pains, aches and hopes of a dying man.MokoFeed2009-11-10T10:38:54+01:00tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2008-04-18:/2006/11/28/i_hate_myslef~1377361/#c6599031Olenkamajka2008-04-18T23:50:20+02:002008-04-18T23:50:20+02:00 "Kolorowa wrozba"<br> <br> Gwiazdy do kosza zebralam,<br> z mych marzen uplotlam nadzieje<br> i spielam ja broszka ksiezyca,<br> twarz Twoja juz sie smieje,<br> <br> Gdy noc zdmuchnela Twa wiare,<br> ktos rzucil Ci sznur zloty<br> z promieni slonca spelciony,<br> zniknely Twe klopoty,<br> <br> pomaluje Twe sny zleknione<br> zielenia, srebrem i zlotem,<br> daj dlon ...milenka moja,<br> nie chesz? Powroze Ci potem....<br> <br> Copyright by Olenka Maria<br> Canada 2008tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2008-04-18:/2006/08/29/two_days_and_how_many_more_left~1078607/#c6598645Maria_Olenka2008-04-18T22:49:51+02:002008-04-18T22:49:51+02:00Witaj Tolek<br> <br> Nie wiem jak mam sie przywitac dzis...dlugo Cie szukala i pamietam, zawsze bede Cie pamietac.<br> Mieszkalam na Zymierskiego, chodzilismy razem do SP 12 do jednej klasy, byles moim swietnym kumplem i mysle , ze tak pozostanie. Prosze o kontakt...blagam.<br> Ja mieszkam w Edmonton Canada. Pozdrow Hanie...love<br> Mariatag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-11-28:/2006/11/28/i_hate_myslef~1377361/#c2235521mad-poet2006-11-28T10:49:24+01:002006-11-28T10:49:24+01:00dont let the bastard's grinde you downtag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-29:/2006/08/29/two_days_and_how_many_more_left~1078607/#c1609647Cocktailer2006-08-29T23:52:24+02:002006-08-29T23:52:24+02:00I know Zoloft well. It will take time (more than a week) but it gives perspective and makes the depression three steps further away so you can look at it and start to deal with it. Take them for more than a month, it'll take that long to feel lighter. Good luck.<br> <br> Your dogs are beautiful.tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-27:/2006/08/27/what_the_hell_was_that~1073613/#c1594893jaketaylor2006-08-27T20:04:55+02:002006-08-27T20:04:55+02:00well done for not drinking or smoking :D it needs lots of determination which you seem to have!tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-27:/2006/08/27/what_s_going_on~1072910/#c15927282006-08-27T10:54:02+02:002006-08-27T10:54:02+02:00If you can sustain this, you will be able todo it forever.tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-27:/2006/08/27/what_s_going_on~1072910/#c1592716John_Anthony2006-08-27T10:51:09+02:002006-08-27T10:51:09+02:00I wish you were here with me. You are young but very wise.tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-27:/2006/08/27/what_s_going_on~1072910/#c1592707rishansid2006-08-27T10:48:37+02:002006-08-27T10:48:37+02:00come on john,u know ur the best and u have to be better than the best.....so dont even entertain such thoughts....you know u have a goal.then go ahead and achieve it.......dont fall prey to temptationtag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-24:/2006/08/24/frustrtion_and_hope~1064507/#c1576804rishansid2006-08-24T09:12:38+02:002006-08-24T09:12:38+02:00uff u have some work to dotag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-23:/2006/08/23/i_still_have_my_doubts~1062027/#c1572205rishansid2006-08-23T13:35:48+02:002006-08-23T13:35:48+02:00its surely goin 2 happen my friend.....happy days r back againtag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-22:/2006/08/22/could_that_be~1058798/#c1566695rishan2006-08-22T13:58:05+02:002006-08-22T13:58:05+02:00thanx for ur compliment mr.john..therz one policy i follow which may aid u as well,that is compliments and criticism,i dont let it effect me bcoz i know best what i am...<br> <br> god bless byetag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-22:/2006/08/22/could_that_be~1058798/#c1565291John_Anthony2006-08-22T09:55:26+02:002006-08-22T09:55:26+02:00Thanks my dear, handsome, young man.tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-22:/2006/08/22/could_that_be~1058798/#c1565284John_Anthony2006-08-22T09:54:41+02:002006-08-22T09:54:41+02:00He,he. I really believe that some fellow bloggers can read this much.:)tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-22:/2006/08/22/could_that_be~1058798/#c15649682006-08-22T08:57:50+02:002006-08-22T08:57:50+02:00Do you expect fellow bloggers to read this much. Be short. tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-22:/2006/08/22/could_that_be~1058798/#c1564921rishansid2006-08-22T08:48:54+02:002006-08-22T08:48:54+02:00hey congrats john...keep the big bucks cumin...as they say donot matter as long as they come...<br> and believe me ur a damn good actor...yeah i know i am saying this without seeing u act....but if someone can convince oneself,then he can convince anyone in the world....we ourselves r our best critics....<br> <br> and talking about criticism,dont let that bother u......everyone will have an opinion ,otherwise they wouldnt have been humans...<br> just try identifying constructive criticism from destructive and then introspect and learn from it....<br> positive outlook and attitude is paramount if we have to do anything.god bless u and do keep me informedtag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-21:/2006/08/20/sieg_heil_or_me_as_hitler~1054681/#c1561595John_Anthony2006-08-21T16:38:00+02:002006-08-21T16:38:00+02:00Thaks for your comment:)<br> I loved your piece about curtain cleaning...<br> You have very good sense of humor.<br> As to the text, which you did not understand? Well, i think that some "friend" of yours wanted to make you wonder and she/he sent you a horoscope or a tarot reading from a newspaper.<br> tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-21:/2006/08/20/sieg_heil_or_me_as_hitler~1054681/#c1560279phinebooty2006-08-21T12:22:00+02:002006-08-21T12:22:00+02:00sounds like an intersting project and maybe you might just get all that work you crave and have things go better for a while. as for your friend not giving you enough money, well, life is a wheel and it turns. one day you wont have to be grateful for being treated decent and you will be able to demand what's rightfully yours. good luck with the gametag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-10:/2006/08/10/i_just_do_not_believe_it~1028829/#c15078312006-08-10T15:05:33+02:002006-08-10T15:05:33+02:00Tottaly agree with you, Blair has lost the plot, so has that Reid guy who is a complete wanker anywaytag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-09:/2006/08/08/so_it_goes_on_and_on_and_my_memories_are~1024297/#c1500887John_Anthony2006-08-09T10:19:31+02:002006-08-09T10:19:31+02:00Nice approach. I've tried it before. Didn't work for too long. Now it is totally impossible to change anything. I will live as long as my pain will not be too strong. Trust me, I love life and I'd love to be happy. But I can't be happy. <br> I can't run anymore from my pain, which is in me and eats me every day. Only night brings little relief when I fall asleep. If death is like sleep but only eternal, let it be. There won't be any dreams, I guess. But dreams can be painful too. I don't need them. tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-08:/2006/08/08/so_it_goes_on_and_on_and_my_memories_are~1024297/#c1499218Scotsmanmatt2006-08-08T22:27:26+02:002006-08-08T22:27:26+02:00Hey bud.....<br> <br> It's always better to be alive than to be dead regardless of the pressues upon our lives. Get drunk, go to bed and in the morning when you wake up send me hello post...<br> <br> cheerstag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-08:/2006/08/07/what_to_do_to_invite_her_and_ask_her_to_~1021327/#c1495306John_Anthony2006-08-08T11:04:48+02:002006-08-08T11:04:48+02:00I've lived my life loving others. I've lived my life and never received any honest, true love.<br> I can't remove the pain, which drills my soul and my body. I do not want to feel this pain. What can stop it? Who can stop it?<br> I have nobody around whom I can trust anymore. What's left but death?tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-07:/2006/08/07/what_to_do_to_invite_her_and_ask_her_to_~1021327/#c1493051Lola-J2006-08-07T20:58:04+02:002006-08-07T20:58:04+02:00There is no rhyme nor reason as to why we are here, why we suffer, why we lose love. We spend far too much of our time wondering WHY that we forget how to live. We are the only people in charge of our destiny and it should be our choice how we choose to live it.....or indeed end it.<br> <br> *Hugs*tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-01:/2006/08/01/the_day_to_remember~1005007/#c1462146John_Anthony2006-08-01T14:06:36+02:002006-08-01T14:06:36+02:00I beg to disagree. The 1st of August of 1944 is the day, which should live in infamy. Sixty two years ago a group o irresponsible officers of Polish Home Army decided, against strong advise of the Home Army Intelligence, and begun the Uprising which destroyed the 700 years old Capital of Poland, killed 250.000 civilians and 18.000 resistance fighters.<br> Poles should remember the date of August 1st, 1944 as the reminder of gross irresponsibility and political blindness of the Home Army Commanders and its Staff.<br> <br> <br> tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-08-01:/2006/08/01/the_day_to_remember~1005007/#c14616282006-08-01T12:29:38+02:002006-08-01T12:29:38+02:00Another reason to remember today is that it marks the 62nd anniversary of the beginning of the Warsaw Uprising.<br> <br> Kind regard.<br> <br> Hektor.tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-07-31:/2006/07/31/rolling_down_the~1001704/#c1454793deleted user2006-07-31T08:08:41+02:002006-07-31T08:08:41+02:00Yes, When you are faced with a number of problems, the only sensible approach is to completely focus on one at a time.<br> <br> You might care to consider my current blog topic.tag:john-anthony.blog.co.uk,2006-07-09:/2006/07/09/pain_grows_and_grows_in_me~945289/#c1342363astronut2006-07-09T10:00:39+02:002006-07-09T10:00:39+02:00As the Tibetan monks would say, happiness or unhappiness comes from the mind, not from the people or things around us. The state of depression is a difficult condition to be in, because by its definition it makes you not want to get better. So the biggest and most important hurdle to jump is to actually decide to be happy. To decide to be unhappy is totally unrational, and to decide to be happy is completely rational. Of course simply making that decision is not going to make you suddenly happy, but it will open your mind to any help that is available, and there is plenty out there. Such as therapy, meditation, self help books etc.<br> I hope you eventually do find some happiness.<br> <br> David