I don’t have any children! By now, I suppose to be a grand father and I am not.
Sometimes I am sad when I think about it.
But I did not choose to be gay.
Shit!
Do you hear me!!!
I did not choose to be gay!
It just happened. My anger that I did not become a father and grandfather does not mean I do not accept my homosexuality.
However, I can’t say I am very happy because I had to be gay. I do not believe in any cure either. If you want to know, I used to fight my gayness. When I was about twenty something I had a girlfriend and I had a lot of sex with her and it did not cure my homosexuality. I did not really feel any love for her. I never felt any love for any women.
Shit! I supposed to have children and grandchildren and I don't.