Tom R. called me just few minutes ago and said that the book reading people are on their way to his studio to listen to the sample of “Harry Potter” I have recorded for them last Friday night.
Tom sounded very upbeat and told me that he is going to “sell me” to them and wants me to tell them when they will talk to me later, I want definitely work with him and record in his studio. He even said; “play hard to get a star”…when you will talk with them…I don’t know about it? I do not want to “play a star”. On the other hand I want this contract and want Tom to be my soundman.
He is really great. He is so great that, and this is a secret, in 6 months time he will be recording certain Steven and his band.... in his studio!!!
If this is true I WANT TO BE THERE!!!
Anyway, I treated that news as something, which MAY happen but probably will not.
I have learnt to do that for I found out that if people blab a lot less they get. There is an old proverb in Poland..."the cow which moo too much gives less milk."
So, I am treating all the offers and all the talk I am getting from other people who supposedly want my services and tell me their stories, as talk only.
Only when I put my signature on the real contract I would treat things seriosuly and only if the story will materialize in front of my very eyes I am able to say I believe.
But, as I wrote above, Tom called and said that book reading people are on their way and he will sell me to them…He sounded very serious!
Just before Tom’s phone call my dear Raphael called me from the States. The news he gave me was a bit better. He finally has a job. It is nothing and pays nothing but still. It is a job.
He is such a beautiful man. Why did he say no to fashion people when three years ago they begged him to become a model for them? Gianni Versace and Calvin Klein and other fashion tycoons saw him live and wanted him instantly.
He refused and now he is paying for it dearly. Such an opportunity does not come all the time. Well, I am glad he found a job. He paints houses for $12 an hour…
Shame!
What can I tell him? I know he is in deep but how can I help him? I can’t. He is such a guy (28 y/o and drop dead gorgeous) whose ego is so badly bruised it can't function without tons of love.
And he has no love around him at all. And he is dumb proud. Too proud.
I don’t know?
I have to take care of myself. I know that much.
Raphael knows that he has the big brother and even the father in me. He knows that I love him but I can’t do anything if he does not want to listen to my advise.
Oh well, I must think about me first.
